Thursday, April 7, 2011

30 Day Challenge: DAY ONE


  1. I love the color LIME GREEN
  2. My favorite music to listen to is Michael Jackson.
  3. I love reading and writing poetry.
  4. I look younger than I am :/ People never guess my correct age.
  5. I've been in one commercial & one print ad
  6. I work at Disney World! :)
  7. I'm very outgoing and talkative
  8. There is a tie for my favorite movie : Finding Nemo & The Wiz
  9. I have both twin sisters AND twin brothers.
  10. I love seafood.

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Stop Trippin', It Ain't Too Hard For Me To Jam

Dangerous is one of my favorites of Michael's album. Every song on the album I love and has helped me through every rough patch in my life. "Why You Wanna Trip On Me". "Why You wanna trip on me" speaks to me especially now since I have become more comfortable with who I am and the person I have grown to be. If you have a problem with the way I am, you don't have to be my friend and it won't make me any less of who I am because I love myself. A lot of time people don't think twice before bringing someone down or how another person might feel. I've gone  through too much and have come too far to let negativity affect my state of peace and well being. I'm sure I'm not the only one who has a story and who can relate and that is why once you've gone through your "struggle" you don't have any time for negativity or being brought down. What's the point? In other words, "Why you wanna trip on me? Let me be."

Sunday, March 27, 2011

i'm living by this

JUST FOR TODAY -INDIA.ARIE


Just for today
I will not worry what tomorrow will bring, no
I’m gonna try something new and walk through this day
Like I’ve got nothing to prove, yeah
Although I have the best intentions
I can't predict anyones reactions
So I’ll just do my best
I'll put one foot in front of the other
Keep on moving forward
And let God do the rest

I don’t know what’s gonna happen
That’s alright with me
I open up my arms and I embrace the mystery
I don’t know what’s gonna happen
That’s alright with me
I open up my arms and I embrace the mystery

Just for today 
I’m telling the truth like it's going out of style
I'm gonna swallow my pride and be who I am
And I don’t care who don’t like it, yeah
I feel the fear but I do it anyway
I won't let it stand in the way
I know what I must do
There’s no guarantee that it’ll be easy
But I know that it’ll be fulfilling
And it's time for me to show and prove

It’s okay not to know
Exploration is how we grow
It’s ok to not have the answer
Cuz sometimes
It’s the question that matters

I don’t know what’s gonna happen
That’s alright with me
I open up my arms and I embrace the mystery
I don’t know what’s gonna happen
That’s alright with me
I open up my arms and I embrace the mystery


Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Froze like Blue.

My ex give me the blues and I don't even like that color #damn
You'd think my feet would just easily move cuz I'm basically walking on sand.
On the beach in the sun where the pools and the trees is
But my heart SO stuck in wintertime cold,that you wouldn't believe it

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

The Morning After.

I'm tired of always feeling not worth it.
I'm tired of caring and always feeling if there's a baby I should birth it. Take control let me nurse it.
And if there's any ever crying I'll be the comfort in the storm before you heard it.
Before the thunder I'm here.
Before lightning  I'm drying your tears washing away the pain before the rain with em are gone alla ur fears.
I'm your friend you ain't have to let me in but I'm glad I came .
I ain't rich but I got a heart of gold I wish you had the same.

Saturday, January 8, 2011

Meet Iridessa : The Light Fairy


Iridessa is the smartest and most disciplined fairy in Pixie Hollow. She sometimes butts heads with Tinker Bell, who in Iridessa's opinion doesn't take her studies seriously enough.

Her power is the ability to control light. She can bend and shift it to her will.

I wanna audition to be her the next time around in Disney! (if i stay) :)

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

=D





I'm most excited about
  • meeting my new roomie Caitlin. We click so well!
  • living in a different state!
  • going to the HARRY POTTER THEME PARK! & SEEING THE MJ ATTRACTION CAPTAIN EO !!
  • getting a new , different experience :)
  • hopefully seeing celebs & meeting new , cool, fun people.
I CAN'T WAIT!!!! =)

The World Will End Before Boys Become Men...

#trueshit.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

oneofmyfavoriteverses.

Protection
For Gangs, Clubs 
And Nations
Causing Grief In
Human Relations
It's A Turf War
On A Global Scale
I'd Rather Hear Both Sides
Of The Tale
See, It's Not About Races
Just Places
Faces
Where Your Blood
Comes From
Is Where Your Space Is
I've Seen The Bright
Get Duller
I'm Not Going To Spend
My Life Being A Color!



      Black&White-Michael Jackson

Monday, November 15, 2010

Up close and personal with Chanel Iman !

Rascal Flatts- What Hurts The Most < click to follow to youtube video.

- danced to this song in modern dance class; such a beautiful song

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Words that are significant to me at this time & their definitions.

I will use each one in a sentence .. lol


1. documentary : a work in a visual or auditory medium presenting political, scientific, social, or historical subjects in a factual and informative manner.


    Ex. I am in the process of making a documentary about love.


2. bluffTo mislead or deceive; To impress, deter, or intimidate by a false display of confidence.


    Ex. Alot of guys like to bluff- I don't have time for that.


3. creativitythe tendency to generate or recognize ideas, alternatives, or possibilities that may be useful in solving problems, communicating with others, and entertaining ourselves and others.


    Ex. Creativity fuels my being.


4. friends A person or persons whom one knows, likes, and trusts.


    Ex. I am grateful to have real friends.


5. lovethe emotion of strong affection and personal attachment.


   Ex. The idea of love in all its complexity and many forms inspire me.


6. motivationthe activation of goal-oriented behavior.



     Ex. It is essential for young people to have motivation.

Thursday, November 11, 2010

For Every Girl

Photo: Courtesy of Lionsgate
From left to right (Anika Noni Rose, Kerry Washington, Janet Jackson, Kimberly Elise, Phylicia Rasahad, Loretta Divine, Tessa Thompson, Thandie Newton)

The movie was amazing. The adaptation of the choreopoem to the screenplay was amazing. 
The cast is amazing and the integration of the poems throughout the movie were smooth and 
easy to comprehend. I love poetry , especially ones that may relate to me. A good many of 
them did and it was the poems along with the situation that brought me to tears. Ntozake 
Shange is a vivid , very conscious writer. Her words paint a very clear picture of people and
 their situations. So many people from so many different walks of life and who are any color 
could relate to the situations and characters in this movie. That is why I would recommend
everyone, man, boy, girl woman to go see this movie (not necessarily child because of the
 language and violence and sexual content). You can indeed take "colored" to mean any race 
because women  of all races go through the issues the women in the movie encounter and 
tackle everyday. The play/ choreopoem "For Colored Girls Who Have Considered Suicide
When The Rainbow Is Enuf" is all about getting through when falling down. It is about 
eventually getting up and finding yourself, your place, your "rainbow"



*Even though I haven't read the book/play yet I plan to. I ordered it offline and it is en route as we speak :)

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

I'm in the purple * pause the music player*




The funny thing about 30 second commercials like these is that it takes all day to film! lol We started literally at 10 in the morning and finished at ten that evening. That is why the blinds are closed because it was so dark outside. There were a million takes and only about three breaks. This is a take from later in the day maybe about nine o clock. They realized before this take that my shirt had Run DMC on it and that I had to button up my cardigan. That meant that all the takes before weren't even eligible.. smh.. well the wardrobe lady had chosen my outfit so I was kinda blown. That is also why my hair looks frazzled =P. All of us were pretty tired and ready to go home.

Overall it was a fun experience, got to meet a bunch of interesting kids and in between takes we were geekin just like we were in a real classroom (we were actors). I also got to be in a real commercial and meet Tony Danza!  If you watch A&E all day and don't walk away , you'll probably see it and I've heard it's on Comcast now. I was beyond excited when I first saw it and I'm looking forward to more opportunities like that. If  it never happens I'll still be satisfied and grateful that I even got this chance.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Wow

No Loser, No Weeper 


'I hate to lose something, ' 
then she bent her head 
'even a dime, I wish I was dead. 
I can't explain it. No more to be said. 
Cept I hate to lose something.' 



'I lost a doll once and cried for a week. 
She could open her eyes, and do all but speak. 
I believe she was took, by some doll-snatching-sneak 
I tell you, I hate to lose something.' 



'A watch of mine once, got up and walked alway. 
It had twelve numbers on it and for the time of day. 
I'll never forget it and all I can say 
Is I really hate to lose something.' 



'Now if I felt that way bout a watch and a toy, 
What you think I feel bout my lover-boy? 
I ain't threatening you madam, but he is my 
evening's joy. 
And I mean I really hate to lose something.' 



By : Maya Angelou

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When I read this poem,I could relate to it because I remembered how I used to love someone who I though was special and ultimately irreplaceable. This poem by Maya Angelou made me recognize that when our mothers and aunts say "I know what you're going through" they probably- no , most definitely do. Love and Pain , which is one in the same transcends time, knows no age or  color. They same kinds of issues we have with boys and men, our mothers , grandmothers , great- grandmothers aunts and cousins went through too. Just by looking at them being "okay",  & seeing that their world didn't end because of a boy, we can come to the conclusion that we too will get to that point and we will be okay. Just like my mother always told me , but I couldn't believe it at the exact time she was telling me, " This, too shall pass". My mother was right. Every little thing that I used to think seemed so devastating is not such a big deal anymore, and I am able to look back and learn from my experiences.


I used to think that losing some boy or another was the end of the world, that there was no other 
"toy" . I used to 'really hate to lose something too'. Now I realize that if its meant to me to have, I will have it. If not, there are plenty of other "toys" in the world . At the end of every day , "It's not that serious!" lol :)

Monday, November 8, 2010

My New Favorite Shirt


my fav color(green) + my fav # (don't ask why lol) + my nickname = my new favorite shirt! _ ordered and on the way =)

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Vote Chanel Iman for the FASHIONISTA AWARD!

Since 2006, BLACK GIRLS ROCK! Inc., a 501(c)(3) nonprofit organization, has been dedicated to the healthy development of young women and girls. BLACK GIRLS ROCK! Inc. seeks to build the self-esteem and self-worth of young women of color by changing their outlook on life, broadening their horizons, and helping them to empower themselves. ❞ -blackgirlsrock.org





&Make sure you tune in tonight at 8/7 Central to watch Black Girls Rock! on B.E.T.







Friday, November 5, 2010

A Spike Lee Joint.


So watched "Bamboozled" in my theater class at Morgan State University. I guess I wasn't really prepared for the emotions the film would evoke in me because I was completely shocked while watching it, every step of the way. It should have occured to me that I might not like it, because it was a Spike Lee "joint" lol. - Not that I hate his movies, but I don't exactly love them either. A good few Spike Lee movies that I had watched before like: Jungle Fever, School Daze, and Malcom X had made me angry , sad or just left me with alot on my mind at the movie's end. Those movies sparked thought, pointed out certain aspects of human behavior and in some cases had a very unclear ending, or no ending at all. I guess that's where my anger came from... I love a good ending, a happy one, But as I realized that's not always life.

Bamboozled, in particular's main center theme was of blackface.

Blackface is theatrical makeup used in minstrel shows, and later vaudeville. The practice gained popularity during the 19th century and propagated American racist stereotypes such as the "happy-go-lucky darky on the plantation" or the "dandified coon ".

This act was indeed offensive to African Americans and in the film , an African American television writer, hungry for fame and recognition uses the minstrel show idea , turns it into a "modernized" new millenium version to create a new tv show. The show takes the television world by storm and just like anything that goes up, it comes down. Things come crashing down from people's ignorance, to denial resulting in if not everyone's physical but emotional fate and demise.

The Best Part : Watching it taught me so much I did not know, from the origins of blackface to the effects that it had on so many people and indeed how offensive it can be and is to African Americans even now today. Spike Lee's creative mind is essentially used to teach us and I am grateful that I have had this opportunity to learn.We as African Americans are forced to look at ourselves and how we are bringing ourselves down, from using the "n-word" amongst ourselves or portraying ourselves willingly as "gangstas and hoes" Just like Michael Jackson said, we have to look in the mirror at ourselves and make the change before we can put the blame on anyone else. It starts with us.

The Worst Part: The Reality of it. Actually seeing the characters in blackface, the full-out costumes and "shucking and jiving" was shocking and painful. I also did not like the killings, death. Me being a very emotional person would rather learn hard , tough realities but still have a happy ending. In Bamboozled, that was not the case. People in the movie die because of one misunderstanding or another. No one really had to die, but the fate of a character is usuallly essential in understanding and getting across the full meaning of the story. I cried. Couldn't stop thinking about the history, A reality that was not so long ago.

As a result or my racing thoughts and "bamboozled" mind, I came across this video, of an Australian group called the "Red Faces" in blackface portraying The Jackson Five as a "tribute" on an Australian show called Hey Hey it's Saturday . I would not call this a tribute as they are making fun of Michaels skin tone and karate chopping thier crotches. Harry Connick Jr., An American singer and guest judge speaks out...



Bamboozle: 1.: to deceive by underhanded methods : dupe, hoodwink

2
: to confuse, frustrate, or throw off thoroughly or completely