The Coldest Winter,

I lost my best friend in December.

No, wait-

Actually it was August .

No! I know it had to be September

but my body was so cold, I froze,

literally dozed off and took off (launched my-self)

into shut-down mode.

I laughed my last laugh in July

I Laughed so hard I started to cry

knew it wouldn't happen for a while so i didn't wipe em just let em sit..

and dry. I lied.

I laughed earlier today but it was just "ok"

nothing to cry about, really. Really nothing like July.

I had my first real kiss in February.

The love kind different from the like kind

we had in January and December.

the month "us" was created and there was no more "him" and "her"

But on that Valentines Day when you blessed me with respect not just flowers and chocolate,

I fell in love.

and you kissed me ,then we hugged

we met and rode to school on the bus.

I left you missed me. We met you kissed me.

February love

My fantasy came to an end in October.
I had shared my deepest secret and you told her.

You had promised that you'd keep it, oh

you fooled her , me, into thinking we could be

Write it down, fold it up and give it back to me

..you held it down , took your mask off

and showed me what was underneath

I got your trick or treat

Give me back my secret, please?

I said those three words for the very last time last month

The hottest month of the year my friend and lover disappeared

replaced by a ghost

None of the words I said he could comprehend or feel.

He didn't hug me like he loved me, it felt so unreal

And when I said those words to him

I saw them float right through his skin

And then I turned to hide my tears how fast they rolled past

down my cheeks thats when I turned to look back and he

was gone

No now I know it had to be the winter cuz a coldness came over me..

I literally dozed off and launched into shut down mode. Heavy sleep.

It was the coldest winter ever. I guess I lost my best friend in December.